The two years since I began my wildly improbable goal, which some of you encouraged me to name probable is almost over! I can hardly believe it! Posting on this blog has become an important part of this journey. I do not know if it will continue, as I continue to follow my mandate to be with the writing and not get caught by the demands of the writing. This has been such an important learning for me!
I did as many of you know start my memoir in November, it has sat almost dormant since then. The post below talks a little about that and about my moving back to it.
I want to say a thank you to all of you who have supported me in various ways in these two years.
Thank you! I could not have done it without you. I am here because of community of support that spans countries and continents. Some of you I see in person, some of you I see on facebook, or in my email box, some I know are there because someone tells someone who tells me that they read something I wrote.
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... and now on to my latest preface for my memoir....
Preface for my Memoir... Saved by Love
My father’s funeral was on Feb. 26.He died on February 19.I was by his side when he took his last
On February 27 my grand daughter Mirabel was born.
The waiting was over.The transfer of souls on earth had taken place.
Now I could get back to the writing of the memoir that I
started during November. It is March. Here I am ready, it seems to begin writing, to begin editing.
However it seems the story is different.My father so absent in the November draft, (The draft that began before
he ended up in hospital and then moved to hospice), is now present.Today he is very present in my life, and in
Few things remain the same.
The good bye to my father, long anticipated has taken
The good bye to the church community of my childhood and
youth, long anticipated has taken place.
My daughter has given birth to a daughter.
The obituary long anticipated has been written, vetted, rewritten and published.
who my father was in relationship.
does not reflect who I am in relationship.It was not my funeral.
The eulogy has been given.
My brother Larry did a great job, reflecting on the complexity of our
I have spent a week loving and supporting Mirabel (as she
adjusted to life on earth) her big brother Leo (as he adapts lovingly to his
baby sister),their parents as they eagerly find sleep in all the windows
possible and me, supporting me, as I am fed by all of them in and out of my arms.
Many things remain the same.
My mother continues to be present to me in surprising and
less surprising ways; she is a near constant companion.
I continue to live in Collingwood.
I continue to long for time with my grandchildren and with
I continue to share my home and my life with two wonderful
women, Liwana and Susan.
I continue to write, to walk, to swim, and to enjoy the gift
of my life.
I continue to cherish the time I have with my wonderful
grandchildren and their caring, loving parents.
I continue to dream of travel.
So I will begin again to tell my story ever the same and always different, as
the kaleidoscope of life brings new patterns forward.
The morning started out with peanut butter and jam.
"What kind is it GG, what kind of jam?" Nectarine. "Do we have nectarine" he asked?
Maybe... "I like it, I like nectarine."
"I do not like honey."
Last week he jumped up and down in delight telling me about honey and that he loved it!
We get in the car, "I do not want to go see great grandpa Lorne," he says.
Sometimes we do things we do not want to, we both agree.
We will go see great grandpa Lorne.
Then we will go home to mama and daddy's house.
Great Grandpa Lorne invites him to give him a kiss on his hand,
as he sleepily opens his eyes to acknowledge our arrival.
Leo wants to make the bed move, he knows which buttons to push.
Not today, I say great grandpa is too tired today.
We play with cars, Lightning McQueen and his friends, race around the hospice room.
I move back and forth between the cars and the sometimes open eyes of my father.
Then he is awake and he notices his hunger.
He asks for beef stew, Leo races to the kitchen to help order it.
His two year old hands help me feed great grandpa.
It is time to leave, to go to mama and daddy's house.
I do not want to go to mama and daddy's house.
He wants to play with Lightning McQueen and my brothers, his great uncles,
whom he is coming to know in our visits here.
Sometimes we do things we do not want to do, we both agree.